Mike is doing very well since his surgery, and we have booked a Valentines trip to Samana Dominican Republic. We are really looking forward to it.
Mental health wise, all of my medications have been changed. I now take an anti psychotic med, and when the doc told me it was time, I was horrifed. I mean...I dont believe I was psychotic! In any event, this drug has seemed to curtail the rapid cycling.
That is such a relief, cause I was up and down like a damn yo-yo. It was uncomfortable for me, but it was even worse for Mike. Stress of course added to it, and when he was having his surgery I was beside myself. I barely remember those few days.
I do have a new dog....we just got her off the plane last night. She is a silver lab and she is the most precious pup. She is a bluish grey with blue eyes. Just a stunning animal. Her name is Gracie. Casey is wary of her, and it hurts to think that Casey's feelings are hurt. I hope she will get used to her, and love her as much as she did Finnegan.
We still miss that wee moppet...but I do really enjoy having two dogs, and in the long term, I think its better for Casey too. We continue to make a fuss over Casey so that she doesnt feel neglected.
Because Gracie will be a big dog, Mike will be sure to walk everyday. This is important for his health. It also gives us one more thing to do together. He can walk Gracie, and I can walk Casey.
The cat is just funny. When the dog comes near her...she backs away, but she hasnt gotten mad and spit at her or anyting. Blue and Casey are good buds....so that helps too.
Its been terribly cold here, minus 40 celsius. Going to a warm climate in the next week, is just what the doc ordered. lol...I am already packed, but it was easy because all my summer clothes were in one place. We went and bought Mike a Hawaiin themed bathing suit. Mike says he doesnt follow the trends...he makes them.
I cannot say how happy I am to be having him all to myself for a whole 10 days. Mike is the social one in our family. He has so many friends because he is so gregarious, and he just loves people. When he gets home from work, the phone starts ringing and its always for him. I wish I was more like him, but alas.....I just find it so difficult to interact with people. I really need to understand this about myself. Its getting worse the older I get, and I am fearful of what my life would be like should something happen to Mike.
Mike never criticises me for this. He invites me everywhere he goes, but he doesnt get cross when I dont go. I really do not know how I lucked out. He is truly the best person I know.
Nothing at all like my first husband who was so darn nasty. By the time he was done with me....there was nothing left of my self esteem. After the divorce, he did tell the kids that our breakup was due to his behaviours, but if he knew this, why could he not change some things. I will never understand.
Well...I better get back to work.
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