Dreary day...

but...it is spring at least. This has been a winter to end all winters. Temps hung around 52C for about 2 and 1/2 months, and we got a great deal of snow. Because it is always so cold here in the winter, we usually don't get dumped with a huge amount of the white stuff. This year we got both!

Its kind of a drizzly day...raining actually. Thats alright though, because it gets rid of the snow that is left that is so dirty from all the traffic etc.

I'm feeling fairly good actually. I still have not been taking the mood stabilizers. Its been awhile now, and no manic sessions to deal with. I cannot bring myself to stop the anti depressants though. I am far too chicken for that. Normal everyday life can be hard enough, without depression that never seems to lift. The type that makes you crawl under the covers. The kind that won't let you read...or watch tv...or read blogs...or talk to anyone.

Another blogger I read speaks about the "crying place". I wonder if my "place" is similar. I dont really know. I dont spend time crying when depressed....I dont have even the energy or the desire. I just feel nothing at all....and that is such a scary place to be.

However...that is not where I am at the moment.

I am getting very excited to go and visit my daughter and grandkids in May. I am taking 10 days, and flying out to just enjoy some quality time with them. I had hoped to make the trip this summer, when hubby could come with me...but he wants to do something else in the summer, so I will go in May.

I dont like to fly though. I will have to think of something so that I am not so scared. Its funny...because I am so nervous, I am always the one that gets patted down and really scrutinzed at security. I get mad...hubby laughs. Its really not funny...but I dont know how to change it. I wish I drank....perhaps being drunk would help...or not. That would most likely get me tossed off the plane.

Anyway, I am really just prattling today. Nothing to say....but so much to read, so back to my blog pals. I am so in love with them!

HE IS BACK, AND OTHER NEWS

My brother is back for another month...another glorious month. I enjoy him so much, and I think he likes having time to spend with hubby and I too. My poodle loves him so much it appears, and I may have to watch he doesnt try and sneak her into his duffel bag when he leaves.

I have been around...reading all of my blog friends posts. Just feeling quiet again I suppose. JIP is going through so much it seems...and I wish there were something I could do. Beauty as well...but she is so introspective and I think through her blog..much like Austin, they figure it out along the way. All of you...Kahless, Lynn...so many. I am inspired by you.

Recently, I have returned to some American progressive blogs...mostly in Alaska. As a Canadian, I suppose it should be of no consequence to me....but Sarah Palin is such a car wreck its difficult not to watch. You should see the shenanigans she is up to now. Whoa Nelly.

I would be a democrat were I American, but I have to admit that in early September it looked like Palin might have "something". The more I read the worse it got. Then her interviews with the "gotcha"media like 'Charles Gibson and Katie Couric just did me in.

Some really terrible things have been happening in Alaska in recent days. One major item is the outing of a wonderful blogger who goes by mudflats. She had stated since the early days of her blog that she wished to remain anonymous and she has that right. Her blog although critical of Palin, has also been unbiased when it came to faux pas that a dem might have made. She brooks no nonsense on the blog....and refuses to allow her readers/posters to get into the tin foil hat mentality.

That said...she took to task, a democratic representative in Alaska, in December, because of his snarky emails to constituents and other americans about certain events like troopergate. Google will give you all you need to know if interested about that.

Anyhow, Rep. Mike Doogan of Alaska, wanted payback. So he has spent the last 4 months tracking down who "mudflats" is. He outed her on the Alaska Democratic website in a newsletter to this constituents. He didnt have any idea why mudflats wanted to be anonymous.

Perhaps she had an ex husband who was looking for her. Perhaps she was a business owner. Perhaps anything. Most of all....the rabid right in the States is becoming more than hateful. Death threats and ugly ugly comments have been thrown at other bloggers for making a less that wonderful statement about Sarah Palin.

The backlash has been huge...on both sides. There is the chance of an ethics complaint against this representative....and the question of the right to anonymous free speech has arisen again.

The Federalist papers well over a hundred years ago, were written anonomosly. Jefferson...Adams...many more wrote using pen names, because they understood well that if a certain segment of people didnt like what you said,, it could be dangerous for you.

Mudflats has had lots of support. I am thankful for that, but I am angry that her family has been put in such a place in the first place.

Many republicans are still very angry about the election of Obama. There is much work to be done, and I believe he is at least trying. Did they expect he could personally fix things completely since Jan. 20? Has he made a few mistakes? Probably.

All I know is that when I watched him on tv at the G20 there was none of the dread one usually felt for the last 8 years. You know...the feeling of "what in the world is this guy going to say or do now to humiliate his countryman.

OK...enough political ranting. lol....if you would like, just check mudflats out.